I realized a few days ago that I have wasted a lot of time trying to be “right” in prayer.
More specifically, I try to be “right” and say “the right words” in prayer! I was always second guessing myself, and trying not to sound like “everybody else.”
I know it’s weird, but now I’m trying to bypass all the theological silliness and worry about being “accurate” and “correct” in praying about things and instead trade that in for JOY in prayer, praying the natural way, praying what comes to mind, praying without thinking beforehand about how I will sound to God.
In other words…childlike praying!!
Mark 10:14- 16
“When Jesus saw what was happening, he was angry with his disciples. He said to them, “Let the children come to me. Don’t stop them! For the Kingdom of God belongs to those who are like these children. I tell you the truth, anyone who doesn’t receive the Kingdom of God like a child will never enter it.” Then he took the children in his arms and placed his hands on their heads and blessed them.”
It’s true, “knowledge puffs up, but love builds up.” (1 Corinthians 8:1)
Children…which one of them thinks before he speaks? Considers whether what he or she is about to say is “right”? Yeah…none of them!
Since I realized that I had been trying so hard to pray right or to pray “creatively” I have felt so free and joyful in prayer. What a relief! I won’t look silly before God, no matter what I think I know or do not know! Oh Lord, heal us from all insecurities!! In Jesus’ Name! Thank You!
It’s amazing how He accepts us. It’s also amazing how I didn’t realize this for such a long time. It’s a hurdle to get over too. It’s a prideful hurdle, like “Well, thank You God that I am not like other men!” ( like the prideful man in Luke 18:11)
Whoa..I didn’t realize that that is how I sounded. I didn’t actually thank Him for me not being like other men…instead it was me trying to pray creatively, unlike everyone else. Which is just as prideful. God forgive me. He’s so gracious, really. He reveals our problems so graciously! I mean, He didn’t berate me for this. Instead He just showed me the way…and this way builds so much intimacy. Because who wants to put an act on for their spouse? Or their best friend?
I feel kind of silly admitting all of this. Embarrassed. But the word says to confess our sins to one another, so I hope this confession blesses you and helps at least one other person out!
I’ve always believed that it’s really important to be “real” with God. But it turns out that I wasn’t being much more “real.” Thank You, Jesus, for Your great grace. I am being purified by Your blood all the time! Cleanse me continually in You! Thank You, really, I’m so grateful! Father I pray that we all become more intimate with You. That we put ourselves out there for You. That we are really ourselves in prayer! Help us get to know ourselves through our relationship with You. I pray that we will all become exactly who You made us to be! In Jesus’ Name, amen!!
God bless you!